Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Can't sleep post...

Yes, it is 12:45 in the morning!!! And I can't sleep. This is 'going out late' for me. Which Evan and I never really did, so how would I actually know? Hehe, anywho, we came to my Granny & Pawpaw's earlier today and ended up staying the night. BB went to sleep at his normal earlish time, but Aaden, not so much. The boys don't stay away from home, I think they are still too young, others have different opinions though, I'm sure. I mean they have, just not often. Aaden was so happy, he went and crawled in Granny's bed with her, he thought he was The Boss in the big bed. So cute, and so animated, as usual. I finally convienced him to come in what he calls, 'his bed' at Granny's, to watch Cinderella. Once he fell asleep I realized I had been staring at him for almost an hour, because Cinderella was over. It brought a lot of things to my mind. Such as, how flipping adorable he is, things I could do to keep him so peaceful, wanting him to eat a full meal, just once, to understand he has an amazing family, and friends we consider family, to know he will never meet my Mom, Big Momma, Big Daddy, and others that left us before Aaden was born.

The main thing I think about lately is, what would my Mom think about Aaden.

{I know most of my posts are about Aaden, this is definitely not a 'favorite' thing, this is me expressing how I feel about Aaden's condition, he is our -not so easy- child that I cry at night wanting to help and understand}

So tonight, as A and I are laying in the room my Mom and I lived in for a while at my Granny's (I'm pretty sure) I imagine her being her and wondering what words of wisdom she would have for me. I know I lose my temper with Aaden, even when I know that adds to his stressful days. Sometimes, I feel like I can't deal with him at all. I hate saying Aaden has a 'condition', but he does. I have accepted it, and I am more than grateful it isn't anything life threatening, it's just something we have to figure out day by day. But really... what would my Mom say?? I was only 9 when she passed, but I remember her being the most caring, passionate person I think I will ever know. I remember her yelling at me one time, knowing I deserved it many other times. It was not long before she passed, if I remember correctly, I was playing ball in the house with my step-dad, Pops, and I was obviously swinging for the fence, as always, right? Well, the ball hit her Scarlet O'Hara off the mantle. Yes, she LOVED Gone with the Wind. Poor Scarlet's whole head came off. Even while she was upset, I still knew she would always love me, and protect me. I hope she was up above laughing about that time while I was playing ball in high school, and each time I had 2 strikes on me, I would take a deep breath in and say, "This one is for you, Mom."

Phew, I am all over the place tonight, probably because I haven't seen 1AM, unless it was feeding a crying child, in years.

Another thing I think about is Sunday lunch at my Big Momma and Big Daddy's house. They are my Granny's parents. Life was much simplier back then! Every Sunday Big Momma would cook lunch, I would get to go every other Sunday, when it was my Mom's weekend. She always had fried chicken for me, she knew me too well ;) I remember playing on the swing under the HUGE oak tree, and in the dirt underneath it. In all seriousness, she had the COOLEST dirt. It was so fine and dusty. LOL. Yes, I did just say that. How different would things be if we could all go back to the days where plans didn't interrupt family time, and spending hours surrounded by the people you love most, eating amazing food.

I know soon, I want to start talking to Aaden  & Brady about my Mom, and the things I do remember. I talked to my Aunt Shanna, my mom's sister, about a 'grandma' name for my Momma. We came up with Nonnie.  I can hardly wait to share...

I had tons of things on my mind, and I know they are all jumbled up in this post somewhere, if you can't follow it, I guess it was more the less just for me to get some things out. I hope it isn't too difficult.

Pray I can get some rest now!!

Until next time...

With love,
Courtney :)

Monday, November 21, 2011

Busy bees

Well tomorrow is a big day for our little family. We bring Aaden back to Dr. Holman, his pediatric neurologist, for his 6 month revaluation. I have a list of things to speak to Dr. Holman about, and will have my listening ears on!!

Besides tomorrow's appointment, we always have an OVERAGE of plans during any holiday season. This week is no exception. Especially with Evan's crazy work schedule lately. Although, I have to say, I'm thankful for more than 20 hours, we thought he would get this week. Eeeek.

Wednesday we start the feast at my Granny's house!! I love thanksgiving time! All the food, and great company of the people who mean the most to you!!

Then Thursday is Turkey Day, none the less, it is also my 25th birthday! My, oh my, I have been waiting on 25 since I was 19. For one reason, an one reason alone--- my car insurance went down!! Yep, $100 a MONTH!! Couldn't have been better timing either, since we are now a one income household.
Thursday we are starting off at my Daddy's, I'm so excited about that too. We have never made it to my Daddy's in time to actually sit and eat with them. I have 6 other sisters, so my Dad and step mom normally do a open house type thing, come when you can- the food will be there. Since we always have times to be other places. This year we WILL be at my Dad's to eat with EVERYone. On MY BIRTHDAY :)) Then we will go to Evan's mom's house later on to visit with them as well.

Friday--- Black Friday. Or as Evan said, Broke Friday. Guess that's a NO on shopping for me. Since we already have Christmas taken care of, I don't need to go anyway. Not oh is Friday, Black, whoops BROKE Friday, it's also Evan's 25th birthday!! That's right!! We are a day apart, we were in the nursery at Woman's Hospital together! I'm a whole 27 hours older, and will always be ;) Evan never let's me forget I'm older. But to me, the older the wiser. So I'll take it!!
So instead of shopping on Broke Friday, we are going to celebrate our birthdays! We got a half off coupon to Texas de Brazil, and Granny is getting us a gift card. So that's a FREE amazing meal! Whoop whoop.

Bring it on Thanksgiving week. Us Ingram's are READY!

Until next time...

With love,
Courtney :)

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Coming to the end

Now that we are coming up to the end of my first week as a 'Stay at Home Momma', I just want to remember some of the things that I have thought about and how the week as gone.

First Of all, I can see how this isn't for everyone! I after Monday was over, I realized, it IS for me :) I'm not quite sure what it was about Monday, but it just was not my day. Guess that's a Monday for anyone though, right?

TIMEOUT... I'll explain later

Well the adjustment we had Monday and earlier in the week were their schedules, yes, I am one of 'those' moms. I have a ONE and TWO year old. I have to be that way. Monday morning the boysw woke up early (I think Evan woke them when he came in from work, but maybe not ;). The getting breakfast and ready for the Halloween party at daycare, so happy Jessica let us come back for it. Super cute!! Then itwasback home getting ready for naps and lunch, etc. of course, since evan has been on nights (2 months now), Aaden has been sleeping with me. So he wants me to lay down with him for his nap, which is fine with me. Except, I can only do that if Bradyis asleep. I have been working all week to let BB take a super early nap, then they can notate same time after lunch. Which is even better because if BB stays up longer he sleeps longer. Aaden loves his nap, if you can get him to calm down and sit still long enough to fall asleep. He will snooze for 2+ hours. He has always been that way. Brady is slowly learning too

Then, Monday night was Trick or Treat. We always have a blast, since Evan & I have been together, we have went to his Nana's house. Before we had kids, we would just pass out candy to all the little cutie pies. But now we have our own cuties to walk around, althoughm this was the first time Evan missed it, because of work, we still had a good time. Lottie pulled the boys around in the wagon while I snapped pics and Granny, Pawpaw, & Nanny helped bring the boys for candy. All was well until we ran into Big Foot. Ok, now I'm going to vent. When you are in a busy trick or treating neighborhood, and are over the age of 12, or old enough to decide you want to be something scary. Think about the little kids that are outside enjoying the night. Or wait until trick or treat time is over and walk around like a jerk. Sheesh. Let's just say, Aaden is not a fan if Big Foot. {I'm kind of upset u can't upload pics from the iPad}
Pics to come, promise. ;)

We made it home and quickly got the boys to bed. Tuesday was completely different. The boys were both in great moods, I don't think we even woke Evan up, hence, we were super quite. The weather was nice enough to go outside and play with Zoey, our puppy, so that's just what we did. Wednesday and today, about the same. We are exploring different things to eat for breakfast and lunch. Suggestions??

We also went to the store in the middle of a weekday. Pretty awesome!! Huge perk :)

Ok--- the explanation of the TIMEOUT earlier. Aaden likes to take off his diaper and poop. Ahhh, from what my Granny has told me, my Momma did the same thing. Lol.

Sorry for type-os, first entry on the iPad.

Until next time...

With love,
Courtney :)